Still a Big Brother

 When I told you the news of who was coming and what was about to happen

You were so happy, so ready and so full of passion

I couldn’t have asked for a better big brother

In the run up to the time that we would welcome another

You asked lots of questions and our excitement grew 

Soon came the news that made our hopes and happiness fade blue

We talked about the future and what may come to pass

The next few months we lived like Mummy was made out of glass

You were understanding, caring and acted beyond your years

I held you so tightly and we wiped away each other’s crocodile tears

We lived in hope and willed Louis to defy all the odds

At each appointment he surpassed expectation and accepted the pokes and prods

 

 As a Mother and Son we both grew strong

Together we walked the yellow brick road, although at times it was long

I was honest and together we ploughed forward

Even during the times I was out of my depth and life was disordered

2020 has been a year of hard lessons

Each one showcasing unexpected blessings

Never lose hope or extinguish the smallest ember

At the end of all of this you must always remember... 

You’re still a big brother even though Louis couldn’t stay

You’re still a big brother and he will be in our thoughts everyday

You’re still a big brother even though he was called to live on the moon

You're still a big brother even though he was taken away too soon.

You’re the big brother that went above and beyond

You’re the big brother who formed the most unbreakable bond

You’re a big brother to our baby in the sky

You’re still a big brother even though we had to say goodbye